Verse
Well I want the smorgasbord lifestyle,
I feel it's not about the one
It's about the sum of experiences
The wisdom I've gained from standing on my own two feet,
Younger than you, I suspect.
The memories I've lost, though I'm looking for some answer
and for whatever reason I'm not in any hurry, I'll find it
One day I'll walk right by it. Introduce myself,
add small talk then fast forward to what I have to say...
Chorus
So where have you been? Your taller, I feel much smaller
But your rosey cheeks are gone whats wrong, don't run stay with me
Tell me I need to know what's on your mind
Help me define what's mine
Help me define what's mine
Help Me define what's mine
Bridge
Five more minutes please
Just five more minutes please
Verse
I sing
Sometimes when I'm alone I feel I need a man
in my life for that balance
said
I want a relationship please, not someone who'll sneeze
at anything I through in his direction
"Your Cute" He'll say "Can I see you in Private?"
Then you realize he's a thousand miles further from shy than you though.
I've got gut rought,
Do you ever feel like your body's floating like a floation device?
Chorus
So where have you been? Your taller, I feel much smaller
But your rosey cheeks are gone whats wrong, don't run stay with me
Tell me I need to know what's on your mind
Help me define what's mine
Help me define what's mine
Help Me define what's mine
Bridge
Five more minutes please
Just five more minutes please
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
My Life
This adventure has done soo much for me as a person. I feel stronger in my own skin. Like I can finally wear my true personality on the outside. Everything feels different, better. I went to a vipassana retreat in Chaing Mai with Gabby. We signed up for 10 days and managed to finish 4 before sneaking out. When we were on the street it felt like I hadn't seen a Car or a store for ages. I think thats sort of how I feel now. Like I get to have the new sock feeling everyday:)
A few moments...
~Gabby and I were having breaky together in Chang Mai at this wicked cafe that was actually someones house. We sat in this back courtyard that was deliciously decorated in random paintings and plants and furniture and jars of snakes and chaos...When saying thank you to the owner and telling him how much we enjoyed his place he started telling us about his life. How he meditated everyday. I asked him what kind of meditation he was doing?(feeling quite savvy after doing my 4 day retreat) "It doesn't matter what you do, he said, just try to concentrate on one thing for awhile and give your mind a break...I paint."
~In the ruins of Angkor on our second day we started to get creative. We decided to climb through the rubble to see what we could find. We peaked over the roof to find a family of locals just chilling and eating lunch.
~In deep practice during the vippassna retreat. I was in my room speaking, we're not supposed to be speaking but me, Gabby and this Australian Actress Kat were in my room speaking. This monk walked by and yelled, "everyone practicing" and in a panic the three of us ran into my tiny bathroom in giggling hysterics. We were plotting mine and Gabby's escape from the temple. I had asked earlier to our teacher, Chi Bo Din, " we'd like to leave today. We've decided that this type of meditation is not what we're looking for and we'd like to have our closing ceremony and leave the monastery this evening."
"Mmmmm, Yes yes, He said, Everyone practice in the temple today. The construction here is to loud." "No We'd like to leave today." " Yes, you go to the temple for practice today" and strolled off, barely even acknowledging the fact that I'd said anything.
~On Ko Chang Island I met so many musicains and so many Rastas. One in paticular named Tong was insanely good at playing Bass. I asked him one day, " how did you get so good on guitar? You know so much theory." " I go to school, he said, "My friend, my friend and I live togetha for 3 years. He go to school and I wait at home. Then when he comes home he teach me what he learn. That way we have more money for ganga. His money for school, my money for ganga..."
~Let me try to give you the mental picture. Your zooming up a half built road, cautiously but also with a ton of adventure lurking in your mind, you ride almost straight up. You come to a peak in the road and you stop. The sun is bright because it's about to set and it's golden rays are shining. Your standing between these 2 dirt cliffs on both sides from the most insane beauty you've seen in maybe years. as you coast down you stare at the bay and the valley of trees and the turquoise water, not a glimpse of civilization in site...All I could think was this is my life!
I hope that all of you are living in whatevere way makes you happy. If your not happy then get out. Even though I know it's cold back there at this time just be thankful of all the people and moments and food is about to be around you. I expect all of you to take an extra peice of Turkey and eat it for me.
I wish for you all everything that you want for yourself in this life.
Annie B
A few moments...
~Gabby and I were having breaky together in Chang Mai at this wicked cafe that was actually someones house. We sat in this back courtyard that was deliciously decorated in random paintings and plants and furniture and jars of snakes and chaos...When saying thank you to the owner and telling him how much we enjoyed his place he started telling us about his life. How he meditated everyday. I asked him what kind of meditation he was doing?(feeling quite savvy after doing my 4 day retreat) "It doesn't matter what you do, he said, just try to concentrate on one thing for awhile and give your mind a break...I paint."
~In the ruins of Angkor on our second day we started to get creative. We decided to climb through the rubble to see what we could find. We peaked over the roof to find a family of locals just chilling and eating lunch.
~In deep practice during the vippassna retreat. I was in my room speaking, we're not supposed to be speaking but me, Gabby and this Australian Actress Kat were in my room speaking. This monk walked by and yelled, "everyone practicing" and in a panic the three of us ran into my tiny bathroom in giggling hysterics. We were plotting mine and Gabby's escape from the temple. I had asked earlier to our teacher, Chi Bo Din, " we'd like to leave today. We've decided that this type of meditation is not what we're looking for and we'd like to have our closing ceremony and leave the monastery this evening."
"Mmmmm, Yes yes, He said, Everyone practice in the temple today. The construction here is to loud." "No We'd like to leave today." " Yes, you go to the temple for practice today" and strolled off, barely even acknowledging the fact that I'd said anything.
~On Ko Chang Island I met so many musicains and so many Rastas. One in paticular named Tong was insanely good at playing Bass. I asked him one day, " how did you get so good on guitar? You know so much theory." " I go to school, he said, "My friend, my friend and I live togetha for 3 years. He go to school and I wait at home. Then when he comes home he teach me what he learn. That way we have more money for ganga. His money for school, my money for ganga..."
~Let me try to give you the mental picture. Your zooming up a half built road, cautiously but also with a ton of adventure lurking in your mind, you ride almost straight up. You come to a peak in the road and you stop. The sun is bright because it's about to set and it's golden rays are shining. Your standing between these 2 dirt cliffs on both sides from the most insane beauty you've seen in maybe years. as you coast down you stare at the bay and the valley of trees and the turquoise water, not a glimpse of civilization in site...All I could think was this is my life!
I hope that all of you are living in whatevere way makes you happy. If your not happy then get out. Even though I know it's cold back there at this time just be thankful of all the people and moments and food is about to be around you. I expect all of you to take an extra peice of Turkey and eat it for me.
I wish for you all everything that you want for yourself in this life.
Annie B
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Fast forward
How can anyone be sad when the see puppies and butterflies everyday?
Sooo after Bangkok I headed up north to Chang Mai. I was feeling like some zen time and decide to take on the 10 day Vippissanna. White clothes, free room and board, beautiful surroundings, and meditation(sigh). It's funny, if someone told me at home that I could stay silent and meditate for 7 hours a day I wouldn't believe it...But I did. Mind you it didn't last long. After speaking to my travel pal on day four we decided to leave the monastery. It just wasn't the type of meditation we were compatible with.
Walking down the street after cleaning our rooms and sneaking out it felt soo new and different. I felt so content with anything. Everything seemed so simple. On day 14 we left for the Mountains for three days of trekking. The hike on the first day was beautiful but was almost entirely straight up. There were parts of the trail where the palm trees were completly surrounding us giving me the feeling of being one of the three kids trapsing through their backyard in 'Honey we Shrunk the Kids.' But the view was spectacular.
On day 20 we travelled from Chang Mai all the way to Siem Riep in Cambodia. We were going to Angkor Wat.
We started our first day with a sunrise. It was the coldest, dustiest ride ever. Super bumpy, pitch black, my eyes were mushed with sleep, and the air was freezing. Angkor Wat is huge.There is a moat the size of a lake around it. Not only the bigges religious structure in the world but I think it may be the only religious monument that combines 2 religions, Hinduism and Buddism. As I walked along the walls of the different scenes I wondered if they were myth or reality. It is as magical as I thought and I feel both honoured and blessed for laying my eyes and my hands on it.
As of now, day 33 I think (and travelling solo!) I'm on this darling island in Thailand, Ko Chang. First day I was here I wondered about with my guitar on my back to investigate the area. By night fall I had new friends, a wicked bungalow, and was invited to play regularily at a Rasta Bar in exchange for free food.
~ At home I was thinking that it would be harder to meet people...
Travelling(in the sense of meeting people) is like being in a ski lodge cafeteria. Everyone has red sweaty faces, matted hair, and stinks. You look over and see an older lady struggling to get her boot off and you rush over to give her a hand cause you know exactly how she's feeling and how awesome it's gonna feel when she gets it off.
You tug and tug until you fall backward with the boot in your hands and both start laughing. She thanx you and you smile...
~ Never be afraid to travel because it's just like being at concert. You already have something in Common:)
Sooo after Bangkok I headed up north to Chang Mai. I was feeling like some zen time and decide to take on the 10 day Vippissanna. White clothes, free room and board, beautiful surroundings, and meditation(sigh). It's funny, if someone told me at home that I could stay silent and meditate for 7 hours a day I wouldn't believe it...But I did. Mind you it didn't last long. After speaking to my travel pal on day four we decided to leave the monastery. It just wasn't the type of meditation we were compatible with.
Walking down the street after cleaning our rooms and sneaking out it felt soo new and different. I felt so content with anything. Everything seemed so simple. On day 14 we left for the Mountains for three days of trekking. The hike on the first day was beautiful but was almost entirely straight up. There were parts of the trail where the palm trees were completly surrounding us giving me the feeling of being one of the three kids trapsing through their backyard in 'Honey we Shrunk the Kids.' But the view was spectacular.
On day 20 we travelled from Chang Mai all the way to Siem Riep in Cambodia. We were going to Angkor Wat.
We started our first day with a sunrise. It was the coldest, dustiest ride ever. Super bumpy, pitch black, my eyes were mushed with sleep, and the air was freezing. Angkor Wat is huge.There is a moat the size of a lake around it. Not only the bigges religious structure in the world but I think it may be the only religious monument that combines 2 religions, Hinduism and Buddism. As I walked along the walls of the different scenes I wondered if they were myth or reality. It is as magical as I thought and I feel both honoured and blessed for laying my eyes and my hands on it.
As of now, day 33 I think (and travelling solo!) I'm on this darling island in Thailand, Ko Chang. First day I was here I wondered about with my guitar on my back to investigate the area. By night fall I had new friends, a wicked bungalow, and was invited to play regularily at a Rasta Bar in exchange for free food.
~ At home I was thinking that it would be harder to meet people...
Travelling(in the sense of meeting people) is like being in a ski lodge cafeteria. Everyone has red sweaty faces, matted hair, and stinks. You look over and see an older lady struggling to get her boot off and you rush over to give her a hand cause you know exactly how she's feeling and how awesome it's gonna feel when she gets it off.
You tug and tug until you fall backward with the boot in your hands and both start laughing. She thanx you and you smile...
~ Never be afraid to travel because it's just like being at concert. You already have something in Common:)
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